Settled for now.

 This pilina with K has been bothering me as of late but I finally and logically came to a conclusion that makes sense. And from what my friend Michael said last night, he has never said anything positive about him and this hui I am in. It made me think and Michael and Kau'i said out loud about why am I still doing there and there are other where I am get my 'ike from. There is sadness in me when it made sense to me. He doesn't value me. My whole perception was completely lopsided. What a joke. That is why it has been difficult to practice even though I do want to practice.